there are so many things on my mind now
but not all of them can be put on the blog

hurumph

how?

anyways, looks like mum and i have finally come to a common understanding about studies and canoeing. at the very least she knows that they are equally important to me. well, that's what i make her believe la. tho i have to say.. seriously? canoeing wins out a weeeeeeee bit more.

cos rj is like such a competitive envt when it comes to academics that i kinda lost confidence in doing well doesn't help that i dint score the humanities scholarship. so i've kinda been sustaining myself on the confidence i get from canoeing.. does anyone get me here??? i dunno. it's this rather ungraspable idea i have, that canoeing is why i still bother to be more or less disciplined when it comes to studying. it makes me feel good, good enough to wanna do well for my studies too.. argh. i just cant explain it. anyways, the elusive point here is that if i were to be forced to drop canoeing due to certain circumstance (iow flunking my cts), i will be one sad, unmotivated girl..
_{..who cant seem to stop thinking abt someone. it's blardy ridiculous. i dun even know him that well!! >.<}

last saturday's trng sucked. like big time. but yknow what? one omggxx shitified trng isnt gonna pull me down. because if there's only one thing i learnt from my 16 yrs here, it's definitely what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.

anyways, when i really think about it right, it dint suck all that much anyways, the resistance (yes you read that right!!! jiaolian finally decided that resistance trng is good for us since we all seem to have trouble sticking the entire blade face in.. but being jiaolian, he has to resistance in his own special way for us tho, no tennis balls tied under the boat. nope. it's lifejackets tied to the front of the boat for us.. one word: glam. another word: not. another statement: the backwash we generated kills.. there was no need for fountains to keep the water un-stagnant at all.) trng was good. the 2k after that was even better. i felt like was flyinging! heck the cliche but that's exactly what i felt. omg. and i bursted for like 500m, followed by 110%maintenance??
it felt that good.

see? that's why i eat, sleep, dream, study, canoeing.
go to, then; your considerate stone.
5:32 PM
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